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Elara Divine Mamkute Dark Elf Goddess Chaos Imp Penguins Fan Ms. Invisable          Since: 08-15-04 From: Ferelden Since last post: 268 days Last activity: 268 days |
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| Then don't look down.
Is that guy wearing a skirt? |
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Elara Divine Mamkute Dark Elf Goddess Chaos Imp Penguins Fan Ms. Invisable Since: 08-15-04 From: Ferelden Since last post: 268 days Last activity: 268 days |
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| That cat is freaky... where is it's ear?! | ||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||
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Elara Divine Mamkute Dark Elf Goddess Chaos Imp Penguins Fan Ms. Invisable Since: 08-15-04 From: Ferelden Since last post: 268 days Last activity: 268 days |
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| Fuck, I don't remember the other characters!
Uh... uh... random chick! *pathetic grin* But no, seriously, I shall rule Xeogaming... I have planned for far too long! |
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Elara |
Divine Mamkute Dark Elf Goddess Chaos Imp Penguins Fan Ms. Invisable Since: 08-15-04 From: Ferelden Since last post: 268 days Last activity: 268 days
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Yeah, I really need more activity in there. I get a bit of posts now and then but it's like someone posts once and then doesn't come back. Sadness. |
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Divine Mamkute Dark Elf Goddess Chaos Imp Penguins Fan Ms. Invisable Since: 08-15-04 From: Ferelden Since last post: 268 days Last activity: 268 days
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Please say not 4th edition, please. |
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Divine Mamkute Dark Elf Goddess Chaos Imp Penguins Fan Ms. Invisable Since: 08-15-04 From: Ferelden Since last post: 268 days Last activity: 268 days
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Honestly, I would go to Pathfinder rules over 3.5 even... though 3.5 is awesome. The Pathfinder system did what WotC should have done when they went to 4e.
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Anyway, on the comments of Seijika and Cairoi, I agree. Like I said, gamer girls are not ugly, but I do notice more often than not they don't look like supermodels either. Hell, even I have had many a relationship so clearly guys find me attractive, but I will not deny that I am overweight.
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Divine Mamkute Dark Elf Goddess Chaos Imp Penguins Fan Ms. Invisable Since: 08-15-04 From: Ferelden Since last post: 268 days Last activity: 268 days
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I play but I don't keep up with the new sets... haven't since the Mirroden block really. You don't have other gaming stores around? |
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Divine Mamkute Dark Elf Goddess Chaos Imp Penguins Fan Ms. Invisable Since: 08-15-04 From: Ferelden Since last post: 268 days Last activity: 268 days
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Oh, THAT version of Werewolf.
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Honestly, I've never heard of that version until last week. But yeah, sounds awesome.
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Divine Mamkute Dark Elf Goddess Chaos Imp Penguins Fan Ms. Invisable Since: 08-15-04 From: Ferelden Since last post: 268 days Last activity: 268 days
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http://www.d20pfsrd.com/Home
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Pathfinder SRD, check it out if you have the chance.
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Divine Mamkute Dark Elf Goddess Chaos Imp Penguins Fan Ms. Invisable Since: 08-15-04 From: Ferelden Since last post: 268 days Last activity: 268 days
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Exactly my point, thank you Katana. |
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Divine Mamkute Dark Elf Goddess Chaos Imp Penguins Fan Ms. Invisable Since: 08-15-04 From: Ferelden Since last post: 268 days Last activity: 268 days
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Ok, some of this may sound bitchy, but I have found that blunt honesty helps a lot more than kind words in these situations. Know that I say this with much affection and good will.
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On the job. Ignore the feeling and keep doing the best job you can. If you think about it, you will fuck up and it becomes a self-fulfilling prophecy. Honestly, it sounds like that is what happened to you in the past. Your family does not hate you nearly as much as you think they do. Sure, they may not get along with you, but family is family and when the chips are truly down they will be there if you reach out to them. Most likely they are just frustrated by watching you floundering in your own self-loathing. I went through this, trust me. Fuck "remembering the good times". They are nice to look back on later when you are okay with everything, but like Phoenix said, all you are doing right now is comparing them to your life now. Forget Regina and let her go, it didn't work out and in the long run it's probably better for you if she went through a massive personality change. That happened to me when my ex-fiance left. Honestly I feel like I dodged a bullet now, and in time so will you. Again though, if memory serves, the break-up had a lot to do with your depression as well. Which brings me to my next bit of advice. You may not like it, but you really should get medicated. If you don't trust lithium, tell your doctor to find something else. I'm sure they know about the zoloft fiasco but if not tell them to avoid it (anti-depressants and teenage hormones do not mix, being older might change things). Also, go to therapy or find someone that is willing to listen to you and be bluntly honest. Trust me, being told you're acting like a child and that you're the only one that can fix your problem does a lot to motivate you. Bottom line is that no matter what, if you don't like how you are now YOU are the one that has to take the first step to fix it and just sitting there going "whoa is me" does nothing but exacerbate the situation. Do what Xeo did, take it long enough to stabilize and wean yourself off of it and move on from there. Force yourself to draw again, or play the guitar. To hell with being in the mood to do it, just do it. Take a class or something where you have a deadline to motivate you. Just do something to keep your mind active. You'd be surprised at how those skills come back. As someone who has gone on countless "I hate my life" rants, I can honestly say that a lot of what you are going through right now is not nearly that bad and your mind is just blowing it out of proportion. Once you climb out of the hole, you will see it was not really that deep, but who cares since you'll be out and that is what matters. If you have to cry a bit in the process, so be it, probably helping. But you need to want to get out of that hole before anything will change. We are here for you, man. I hope you can get it all together and that things start looking up for you soon.
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Divine Mamkute Dark Elf Goddess Chaos Imp Penguins Fan Ms. Invisable Since: 08-15-04 From: Ferelden Since last post: 268 days Last activity: 268 days
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Hmn, what image shall I do this time? |
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Divine Mamkute Dark Elf Goddess Chaos Imp Penguins Fan Ms. Invisable Since: 08-15-04 From: Ferelden Since last post: 268 days Last activity: 268 days
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Hmn... gonna have to go with Bruce, since he's the classic. I mean, I always found Dick to be kinda... well... a dick. |
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Divine Mamkute Dark Elf Goddess Chaos Imp Penguins Fan Ms. Invisable Since: 08-15-04 From: Ferelden Since last post: 268 days Last activity: 268 days
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Originally posted by Vulkar Yes, yes you have. Nicely put.
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Divine Mamkute Dark Elf Goddess Chaos Imp Penguins Fan Ms. Invisable Since: 08-15-04 From: Ferelden Since last post: 268 days Last activity: 268 days
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Ok, I am going to do the last two because they are awesome. Rogue, where did you find a hot dog like that?
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Survey #1: 1. Do you like Blue cheese dressing? -Generally I prefer ranch, but sometimes it is really good (Mmm, Bob's Big Boy) 2 . Have you ever smoked a cigarette? - Nope, just a hookah 3. Do you own a gun? - Not yet. 4. What flavor Kool-Aid was your favorite? - Wow, that was a long time ago. It's a tie between grape and cherry 5. Do you get nervous before doctor appointment? - Depends on what the appointment is for. 6. What do you think of hot dogs? - Um... well, a Hebrew National is cool once and awhile but otherwise I am not that fond of them. 7. Favorite Christmas Movie? - The Ref! Hands down, best (anti-)Christmas movie ever!! 8. What do you prefer to drink in the morning? - Water, coffee, or a nice hot earl grey tea. 9. Can you do push ups? - Like one or two yeah. 10. What's your favorite piece of jewelry? - My silver ankh necklace, but I would really like to get a better chain for it. 11. Favorite Hobby? - I don't really have one anymore, but I would love to go on more random adventures. Gaming is cool and all, but my back doesn't like sitting in a chair for hours on end anymore. 12. Do you have A.D.D? - Anything is possible but as it stands I've never been suspected of it. 13. Do you wear glasses/contacts? - Yes, all the time 14. Middle name? - Lea 15. What are you thinking about at this moment? - Can we finish this adventure now? (gaming at the moment) 16. Name 2 or 3 drinks you regularly drink? - Water, coffee, tea 17. Current worry: Moving in November 18. Current hate right now? - Weight and fickle friends 19. Favorite place to be? - Bonfires 20. How did you bring in the New Year? - By watching some guy from the tv jump Rainbow Harbor in downtown Long Beach (I can never remember his name other than it is similar to pastrami and he jumped the arch at Caesar's Palace the year before). It was kinda neat but I would have rather gone and hung out with friends. 21. Where would you like to go right now? - Somewhere fun. 22. 3 people who will complete this? - No idea. I also hate these questions when they're written into a meme. 23. Do you own slippers? - Yep, and they are awesome. 24. What color shirt are you wearing? - Black. 25. Do you like sleeping on satin sheets? - It's okay 26. Where are you now? - In my apartment 27. Would you be a pirate? - Sure, why not? 28. What songs do you sing in the shower? - I do not sing in the shower, walls are far too thin. 29. Favorite Girl's Name? - Sephira, Alexandra, Rachel, Dalia, Sirenia, Guinevere, Rebekah 30. Favorite boy's name? - Dexter, Evgeni, Virgil 31 . What is in your pocket right now? - Nothing, for once. 32. Last thing that made you laugh? - Stuff my friend is looking at on Cracked.com 33. What vehicle do you drive? - Mazda 626 LX 34. Worst injury you've ever had? - Broken leg 35. Do you love where you live? - Meh, like the area other than parking. Really want a bigger place, and soon I shall have it... in another state. 36. How many TVs do you have in your home? - Just one. Survey #2: 1. What time did you get up this morning - 9:25am, I had to go to the gym 2. How do you like your steak? - Rare, really rare 3. What was the last film you saw at the cinema? - Iron Man 2 4. What is your favorite TV show? - Dexter 5. If you could live anywhere in the world where would it be? - Um... good question. It has to be this world? Um, Belgium with all of my friends and some family. 6. What did you have for breakfast? - Chicken alfredo leftovers 7. What is your favorite cuisine? - This is hard... tie between Greek, Indian, Italian, Mexican/Latin American, and Japanese 8. What foods do you dislike? - Brussel Sprouts, Chinese food, overcooked veggies, and super-sweat things. 9. Favorite Place to Eat? - Other than my own cooking, microbreweries and this cajun place I like. 10. Favorite dressing? - Ranch or vinegrette 11.What kind of vehicle do you drive? - Mazda 626 LX 12. What are your favorite clothes? - Jeans and a t-shirt... either my Penguins shirt or my bamboo Aquarium of the Pacific shirt 13. Where would you visit if you had the chance? - All over the world 14. Cup 1/2 empty or 1/2 full? - Depends on my mood 15. Where would you want to retire? - Please see question 5 16. Favorite time of day? - Dusk or Dawn 17. Where were you born? - California 18. What is your favorite sport to watch? - HOCKEY 19. What was the name of your first pet? - Shadow, my mom's dog 20. Strangest thing you bought recently? - A pack of wings for D&D miniatures 21. Oddest item near you? - The hanging Data figurines (Star Trek TNG) 22. Bird watcher? - When I see neat ones 23. Are you a morning person or a night person? - If I wake up before dawn, morning, otherwise night. 24. Pets? - Two cats, the destroyers of existence. 25. Any new and exciting news you'd like to share? - Ben and I will officially be moving to Pennsylvania this November 26. What did you want to be when you were little? - A actress 27. What is your best childhood memory? - Horseback riding on my seventh birthday 28. Are you a cat or dog person? - Both 29. Are you married? - No, but eventually 30. Always wear your seat belt? - Usually, but when I am driving in the lot at my work I usually don't. 31. Been in a car accident? - A few of them, only my fault once, only driving twice. 32. Any pet peeves? - Several of them, but it would take far too long to explain. Let's just say dumb questions from work and selfish people 33. Favorite pizza toppings? - Meatball or pesto 34. Favorite Flower? - Orchids (specically the ones you see in graduation leis) 35. Favorite ice cream? - Chocolate malted cruch 36. Favorite fast food restaurant? - Carl's Jr, all hail the $1 chicken sandwich 37. How many times did you fail your driver's test? - 0 38. From whom did you get your last email? - Uh... *checks* Borders 39. Which store would you choose to max out your credit card? - Amazon or Think Geek 40. Do anything spontaneous lately? - Uh, went to Costco and bought assload of groceries. 41. Like your job? - It's pretty cool overall 42. Broccoli? - Nom nom nom 43. What was your favorite vacation? - Hmn... trip to PA was awesome, as was the trip years ago 44. Last person you went out to dinner with? - Ben and my parents 45. What are you listening to right now? - Sounds of gaming 46. What is your favorite color? - Dark green 47. How many tattoos do you have? - One... for now. 48. Do you go see plays? - Occasionally, when friends are in them 49. What time is it? - Midnight exactly... PST 50. Coffee Drinker? - Every so often, yes.
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Divine Mamkute Dark Elf Goddess Chaos Imp Penguins Fan Ms. Invisable Since: 08-15-04 From: Ferelden Since last post: 268 days Last activity: 268 days
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Well, I hope the month speeds by and that your squad leader gets back soon. Honestly, have the one guy brought up on sexual harassment charges like he fucking deserves. |
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Divine Mamkute Dark Elf Goddess Chaos Imp Penguins Fan Ms. Invisable Since: 08-15-04 From: Ferelden Since last post: 268 days Last activity: 268 days
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Hmn... debating between a cool pentacle or the one I used before. Thoughts? |
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Divine Mamkute Dark Elf Goddess Chaos Imp Penguins Fan Ms. Invisable Since: 08-15-04 From: Ferelden Since last post: 268 days Last activity: 268 days
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So I am in San Diego right now at a beer tasting with over 150 breweries and 300+ types of beer. It is AMAZING! I even found the best mead I have ever had, and there are three hours left for this thing. And the best part? I didn't have to pay to go. My friends, life is good. |
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